Dec. 14th

Being a working mom has its advantages and disadvantages.  There is a big movement for women to stay home.  I get that.  I do think it is important for kids to be raised by their parents and not in daycare all the time.  But I also know that God gives us a calling.  Some women are born to be stay at home moms.  It comes naturally.  They love volunteering at their kids' school or home schooling, doing craft projects, taking them places, all that stuff that goes along being with your kids 24/7.  Then there are women, like me.  I do feel like I was born to be a mom.  But I also feel I was born to be a physical therapist.  I often get a look from Christians when they find out I work.  Like they feel sorry for me b/c we can't make ends meet and I have to work.  But that is not necessarily the case.  God put that calling on my heart in high school and it stuck with me through thick and thin.  It took 2 years for me to get into graduate school.  The second time I applied, I only got on a waiting list and I was literally like 124 on that list.  Pretty dismal odds.  I told my husband that I was giving up on school and we were going to have kids.  That was it.  I was done.  Then I got a call.  From the school, saying I was accepted and did I want to join their class of 2002?  It was truly a miracle for me.  Truly God's will.  Especially b/c it meant moving across the country to a place that was scary (Philly) and without knowing a soul. 
But I digress.  My point is, while I love being a mom.  I love being a PT.  It comes naturally to me most of the time.  When someone walks in my office, in pain, barely walking and I can provide immediate relief of their symptoms.  That is a good day.  A day I know what I am doing is right.  Yes, I am torn.  It is hard not being there for my kids every day.  But I know I am a better mom b/c of my job.  It might sound selfish and writing it/thinking it sometimes sounds selfish.  Yet, I know what it took for me to get to the place where I am.  It took God.  It took His gift.  It took His plan.  His courage.   I am pretty sure I never would have made it to this place alone.