Wake up Call:
I have to say, this has been a really difficult couple of weeks for me. Since Bud got out of school, he has been obnoxious. I am beside myself with the chasing the girls, the girls screaming, Sweet Pea being needy and wanting to be held constantly, everyone fighting, etc...
I always have these goals for myself, pick up the house, do dishes, plan meals, pay bills, play with the kids, go to the library, read my Bible, memorize my verse, the list is neverending. As a mom, you know. It is tough. You go to clean up one mess and then someone pees on the floor. Sometimes I think I can't do it. It is too overwhelming. That is when I make my lists. My to do lists and they always start with read the Word. Read the Word. I really do want to do it. I think every day, have I read the Bible today, have I spent time in prayer today? And then...I don't do it. Praying is easier b/c I can do it anywhere. But reading the Bible is something I desire to do, yet my flesh messes it up everytime.
That's when it hit me. My flesh, my list, my goals. No wonder I have been failing miserably at everything lately. I am trying to do it all on my own and it isn't working. I will not accomplish my goals until I lean on God and try to discover His goals for me. His goals, His goals. Not mine. Mine are petty. His are worthy. I am not going to accomplish anything without His help. And I don't want to. Life is so much easier if we follow His plan and not our own.
Today, as a friend is in the process of a miscarriage and another friends father had a heart attack, I am realizing not only how fragile life is but that even though I feel I am failing, that even though my kids drive me crazy, even though I feel overwhelmed...I am so lucky to have all of it. I really need to start my day with being grateful for everything God has given me.
I have no goals this week, no challenges. Just me, trying to listen to God and praying for His work in my life to come to fruition, not my own selfish desires. And for my friends who are struggling with bigger things right now, not just the ones listed but all my friends, I pray that God pours His love on you this week.
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Wow! Your words really spoke to me today! I have been a total "Martha" with, like you said, "MY lists, MY goals" and I never stop to check if that's what God wants for me to do. I'm sure God wants me to do the dishes but something's not right in how I go about my day. I think you are totally right, it has to start with Him and His will for our daily lives. Excellent post friend!
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