Praying Without Ceasing III

A couple of months ago, I felt burdened.  Burdened by things I was going through, burdened by things friends were going through, even burdened by things patient's were going through.  Obviously, the only thing I could do was pray.  But you know how it is.  Let's be honest, sometimes, prayer just doesn't seem like enough.  We want to do something.  Sometimes we can.  Sometimes, we can go and hug someone, take them a meal, buy them a coffee,  but if they are far away those sorts of things just aren't possible and it can be frustrating. 
I am learning, however, that prayer is the first and best thing we can do for someone.  First, having a solid prayer life can make us more in tune with God.  I mean, if we never talk to our friends, how can we connect with them.  Facebook is a prime example of this.  We learn what is going on in their lives, their struggles, their funny anecdotes, their successes.  We feel closer to them for that.  We need to have that same relationship with God.  If we are communicating with Him regularly, I really believe we will be able to hear Him more.  Sometimes, that voice, that urging, that gut feeling, is God communicating with us.  But it is easy to ignore, easy to think following through on it is not that important.  There have been times in my life where I have felt that urging to do something and I ignored it.  I almost always regret it. But it is usually something I cannot go back and change.  I had my opportunity and lost it.  Then there have been times where I have felt an urging that was seemingly small or insignificant and I followed through and not only did I bless someone in the process but I was blessed as well.
So back to when I was feeling overwhelmed, burdened by the cares of the world and overwhelmed with it all, I had a thought.  An urging.  It is about this blog.  It is something that will take more of my time but it is an extension of this journey that I have been going on with my prayer life.  So obviously, the first thing I have been doing is praying about it.  And I continue to feel the urging and confirmation from other sources that it is what I am supposed to do.  I am being vague I know but I don't really have all the details worked out.  But stay tuned.  I am hoping to make the changes by the end of July if not sooner.  And now that I have written it out there for the world to see (or the few people that read this) I am even more committed to it. 
I am hoping you will continue to share this journey with me.

Pray without ceasing part II

Okay, so back to praying without ceasing.  A year or so ago, I felt compelled to ask a friend to be my prayer partner.  That was one of the best decisions I have ever made.  Honestly, I can say that.  It has transformed my prayer life.  Oh, it is far from perfect as can be seen from my previous post but it is so much better than it has been my entire Christian life.  To have someone who relies on you for prayer, who opens up their deepest needs, hurts, fears and is entrusting you to take them seriously.  To not just say an obligatory prayer and move on, but to think of them, to pray for them, to be their support is precious.  But at the same time, knowing they are doing the same for you.  Is truly an amazing feeling.  Knowing someone "has your back" so to speak.  Knowing that when I am having a lousy week, that there is another person who is thinking about my needs and giving them up to God is so reassuring.  And something I am so grateful for. 
I have learned many lessons from this:
     -God listens - I really feel there have been many answered prayers between the 2 of us
     -Satan listens - this is the harder one to deal with.  I know that when we are praying diligently for each other, when we are seeing amazing things happen, he attacks us.  He attacks each of us where it hurts the most, our insecurities, our weaknesses, our hormones....you name it.  He knows how to get to us even with our friendship.  He plants seeds of doubt that we truly care for each other.  I mean how best for him to take our power of prayer away but by breaking apart our bond?  Man he is good at that.
     -Our strength comes from God - one thing I continue to learn is to lean not on my own understanding but on Him.  Usually when I am struggling with something, I am trying to control it myself.  When I give it to Him, to let Him be my strength, it goes so much better.
     - Prayer makes us less selfish.  If we dive deeper into a prayerful life, praying for others, not just whining to God about what our life is lacking, it puts things into perspective.
     -We, as moms, need to stick together.  It is hard to be a mom.  Having the prayer support of someone else, going through the same struggles of not only a mom, but wife, friend, employee, maid, chauffer, tutor, cook, personal shopper...boy we wear many hats.  Knowing someone else is praying for you that is dealing with all the same things, is really helpful.  (Okay, I am using that as an example, I am not trying to offend my friends who aren't wives or mothers.  Really, any woman you have a history with, who understands you, is someone who you need to stick by.  I truly value all my friends and their prayers are always welcome and I find it an honor to pray for them as well).
     -Along with having a prayer partner, praying for my own family is key.  And that is where I will stop, because that is something that requires more digging....

Feeling full

It has been a while.  My life has been crazy busy the past couple of months and I think it will still be crazy but in different ways.
Right now, I feel really full.  Not physically, just mentally full.  There is so much going on in my head, thoughts stirring of things I want to accomplish, greatful for some things to be done, ready for the summer (and the rain to go away!), parenting issues, spiritual issues....I feel like I could possibly burst from it all. 
And in all of this, I have an idea simmering.  Taking on something new, I haven't quite figured it out yet but I feel God's calling, His challenge for me to go ahead with it.  It is something I am heavily praying about and just trying to let Him take me to the place I need to be.
Souds cryptic?  I know.  But I am not quite ready to share yet.  But I am getting there. 
Stay tuned...

You know you are PMS'ing when...

you go to put chapstick on and realize you just opened your deodorant.

Aha moment

You know that moment where you finally come to a realization and wonder what took you so long to see it?  I had that today.
I had big plans for today.  I was going to study.  After dropping my kids off at school, I was going to put a movie in for Sweet Pea and study for 2 hours.  That was my plan.  Well, that was plan B.  Plan A didn't work out. 
If you know me, you know I like to procrastinate.  So sitting down to study is really hard which is why I had a plan.  Then I decided to deviate from it.  Plan C: I was just going to run to Safeway, do some couponing stuff and come home and study.  I really should have stuck with Plan B.  I thought I did pretty well at Safeway.  I was stocking up on tp (.23c per roll which is better than Costco), 3 boxes of tampax for just over $3,(... and man I just realized I forgot to give my yogurt coupons, such a bummer!), plus they were still doing a frozen food thing spend $25 get $10 cat and I had a $10 cat to spend.  I planned it all perfectly.
I came home thinking I did pretty well until I noticed theFoodDay on my driveway.  It never comes on tuesday morning.  If I had known it was coming tuesday morning I would have come home.  What was in there?  A $10 off if you spend$50 coupon.  I could have saved $10!!  That really eats away at me.  Especially when I am trying so hard to save money on the one thing I can save money on, my groceries.
It really has bothered me all day.  Until about an hour ago and I realized something.  Had I followed through on my plan.  Had I been obedient to God.  Because He got me into this class, He wants me to pass, and I really need to study.  I cannot stress that enough.  Had I listened to Him and came home to study for 2 hours, I would have had that coupon arrive and been able to use it before picking Princess up from school.
What I realized in my Aha moment is that I really honestly and truly need to give everything to God.  Everything.  Did you catch that?  Because I obviously need reminding constantly.  Even the things I feel I can have control of like couponing.  That is what I am talking about.  It is easy for me to give my studying to Him b/c I sort of already feel out of control with it.  But couponing is something I have been trying to do by myself.  I have been trying to be good stewards of the money God has given us but haven't been relying on Him with how to really do that. 
So I am going to try really hard to stop obsessing about couponing and give it to Him.  It seems like such a trivial thing to waste His time on but I know that is what He is there for. 

Dinner

Dinner is such a struggle sometimes isn't it.  Today and actually this week has been one of those on the go don't really have a chance to think about dinner until dinnertime kind of weeks.  Add on top of that, the kids have such a limited amount of things they like to eat that it makes it hard to cook one meal because I get sick of the things they want.  So for this season, I sort of am  short order cook.  There are days where I make them try something new and if they don't like it, they can have something else, but then there are days where I just stick with the old standby's (macncheese, chicken nuggets) b/c I just don't have the energy to try.
Today, they got mac n cheese.  But for hubby and I, fortunately, had some frozen parts to a meal and am now cooking a nice taco casserole.  I am so grateful to remember freezing extra things for nights like this, I wish I did it more.  In one freezer I had beans and tomato sauce and in another some already cooked hamburger.  Add some seasonings, sour cream and cheese and we are good to go. 
Here is the recipe that has been given to me and I love:

Taco Casserole:

1 pound ground beef

1/2 can (15 oz) kidney beans, 1/2 can (15 oz) black beans - rinsed (you can use more or less depending on what you like)

1 8 oz can tomato sauce

taco seasoning

1 t garlic powder

2-4 T chili powder

1 C sour cream

1/2 C green onions and tops chopped

1 C cheese

tomatoes

Cook ground beef and taco seasoning

Stir in beans, tom. sauce, chili powder, and garlic powder

heat until it boils - can add some water

Put mixture in  11x7 pan, spread with sour cream

sprinkle with onions, tomatoes, and cheese

Cook uncovered 20-30 minutes in 350 degrees oven

Eat with tortilla chips, salsa and guacamole.

On a side note, I often use more sour cream and cheese but that is because I can't get enough of htem.  It is super easy to make extra and freeze it.

Pray without ceasing...

1 Thessalonians 5:17 says to "pray without ceasing".  Do any of us do that?  Honestly?  Hold your hand up if you do...anyone?  Okay, I do know some people who live this verse.  My mom's best friend is an amazing woman of prayer.  She has prayed for my dad for almost 30 years.  Yes, 30 years she has probably been more consistent with that prayer than I have.  Shameful.  She prayed for her own husband to become a Christian for many many years.  She was faithful.  He is now an amazing Christian, father, leader in their church. It truly has been a miracle to see this man go from nonbeliever to believer.  And that is because of prayer. 
I am going to be honest here.  Praying bores me.  It did anyway.  Oh not the we have a friend in need... someone injured in an accident...Haiti had an earthquake kind of praying.  That praying, I have always been able to do.  Why?  Because it was short lived.  I would say my prayer and then move on.  Those emergency type prayers are not necessarily the pray without ceasing kind of prayer.  Usually, there is an answer that is relatively quick.  I don't get bored with it.  But to pray for someone for 30 years?  And see no answer?  No fruit of your labor?  Is really really hard.  I am ashamed to admit defeat in this area.  That not only have I stopped basically praying for my own father's salvation, but that I have given up on it.
Okay, so this is not where this post was supposed to go.  But here it is.  When you write from the heart, it leads you.  And this is obviously a part of my journey that I have not come to terms with.
If we can embrace and live this verse each day, I think it will transform our lives.