My heart hurts a little...

Tonight Bud threw one of his major tantrums. He absolutely refused to obey me to pick up his toys and get ready for dinner. So I told him, if he didn't, then he would lose them. As I was following through on that, he got out of control. I video taped him which he absolutely didn't like but at least it got him to run to his room where he proceeded to scream and cry. I went in when he had calmed down to talk it out but he didn't want to talk so he stayed there until daddy got home. Once husband finally got him calmed down, he sent me in to talk to him. I asked him what he was supposed to say and he said "I hate to say that word". What word?? "Sorry". I asked is that b/c you weren't sorry for disobeying me? "Yes".
Tear in my heart right there. What do you do when your child is so unrepentant? I prayed with him and that was all I could do. His dad talked to him after he ate and he eventually did say he was sorry and said he meant it. His dad said he thought Bud regretted saying it in the first place. But my heart still hurts. It hurts that he has these thoughts at such a young age. I told him how important forgiveness was, that Jesus sacrificed himself for us but it is all wasted if we don't repent. I don't know if he understood. I hope it was a life lesson for him. It was for me. How desperately we need to pray without ceasing for our children.

Tip of the Week

My tip of the week is if you are baking and run out of brown sugar. This happened to me yesterday and I remembered reading somewhere about making your own brown sugar. It is super easy. Take 1 cup regular sugar and 1-2 Tablespoons molasses and mix them well together with a fork or mixer. If you want lighter brown sugar use 1 Tablespoon or 2 if you want it darker. I did this and my blackberry crisp turned out awesome.
If you don't have molasses in the house, you should b/c it comes in handy with making baked beans.
Hmm...I think I am getting hungry.