Thursday Thoughts On My Faith

I am going to copy my friend California SAHM on this one. My faith is something I am constantly trying to work on. I really didn't have a good role model growing up of what a good Christian woman or mother is. My mom is great in a lot of ways but when she became a Christian, my dad left. That has sort of defined her walk with God. The kind of God who takes away things that you care about. I don't want to be that way.
We have finally found a church where we belong. Where the first day of being there, it felt like home. Have you had that kind of church? We went to a very big church for 5+years and never was able to connect there. It was so big and far away, we just didn't really get involved. We still aren't able to do some things we would like to like go to the Bible study on Thursday nights but it is too hard with kids, especially kids who really need to be in bed by 8. But husband goes to the men's Bible study and I have been trying to go to the Women's prayer group and the amazing thing is we have hardly missed a day of church since we have been going.
I do have a point. With my interactions with the women leaders of the church, I feel I have finally found women to try to aspire to be like. I know we should try to be like Jesus but He must put people on this earth as role models. I am not talking about putting these women up on a pedestal but to learn from them. These are good, Godly women/mother's who exude Christ in their actions. I have always felt that is the kind of Christian I want to be. I am not so good at witnessing, I have never felt it my calling. But I want my actions to speak of my faith and I feel greatly lacking. Their prayers, thoughtfulness, encouragement of other people ... it is all so positive and uplifting. Something I really need to work on. Being more positive.